stay.

 

 

Abah,
I saw you
But you said nothing
Only offering me a smile
My arms wrapped around your broad figure
with the biggest smile on my face
chanting ‘I miss you’ over and over again

Then I woke up crying

I saw you again

You gave me your smile

But never your word

only to disappear again

and I woke up, yearning for you even more

Again, I saw you

with the biggest and brightest smile

but all I could do was stare

then you went away

I woke up shattered

I saw you

and I knew now

it was all a dream

I cried and for once

I hoped to never wake up

so you would stay

and I could hold you again

But you never did

and my bleeding heart woke me up

- aa, 31st July ‘24, 10:48pm

been happy.

I have been happy.

Happier than I ever thought I could be.
The happiest I have been in my whole life.

And I hope, and I pray,
that this happiness will never have to end.

Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you for making me happy,
for giving me reasons to smile,
and for making ordinary days feel like something worth holding on to.

There are still so many words I have yet to say,
but I hope my actions have already told you
what my heart sometimes struggles to put into words.

I love you.
And I hope you always feel it, even in the words I have yet to say.

words that I did not get to say to you.

There are so many things I want to say. So many things I want to tell to you. So many things that I wish I could have told you. 

I miss you, Abah. I really do.

cluttered.

 

How do we organize our thoughts?

Like how do we know and pick which comes first and the rest later?

It has come to that point where writing it down becomes a struggle and ending up with an empty paper.

#1

 

You capture the beauty of the moon,

I capture the beauty of you.

 

Holding it dear and

Looking it back through my memory

Over the time, it fades and it gets blurry

But the way your beauty captivated me

And knocked the breath out of me

 

My heart never forgets.

A new start.

 

A new start.

A new beginning.

Stay tuned.